Good gawd where has the time gone?? So much has happened since I last published. I have numerous unfinished drafts from 2019...thank you ADHD. I may post them later with updates on the subject matter... that might actually be interesting, to me at least. I have been aching to write but have had some trouble determining which medium gives me the most bang for my time and it is my blog where I am most inspired to share. Not that book plans are out the window, but do I really want to write it with a 1945 Underwood? If I do my book is going to look more like a collage. Which I can actually envision in not an entirely displeasing way. And the pen doesn't seem fast enough for my flow of thought, especially with my penchant for neatness and insistence upon writing in cursive. So new keyboard with retro typewriter keys and a slot for my Surface Pro and my phone when I am working. I like it. A combination of old and new.
Anyway... here we are smack dab in the middle of a global pandemic. Enough about that. It is what it is and it will be until humanity learns. That over which I have no control I endeavor not to worry about. Other than the events in East Ukraine that is. But that is another subject into which I would rather not delve. I started this blog again to share my goal of increasing the zen in my life and to address those pesky residues of Complex PTSD. My intention is to be open about experiences in my life in an effort to help others who may relate. Share tidbits of my internal struggles. Possibly illicit thought provoking emotional reactions. Whichever suits.
Although I normally despise labels, I will use 'ADHD' and 'Complex PTSD' as I have struggled with all of the classic symptoms at different times for good reason and both types of mental health issues are well defined and familiar. I had a diagnosis for PTSD years ago but have never been on prescribed medication for it. That and unless I need emergency surgery I typically avoid doctors. As for the ADHD I in no way consider it a hindrance and am amazed not everyone works the way I do. But it's a handy excuse sometimes, am I right? In my view, it is merely a different way of looking at the world and those who can't see what we see need us for perspective. And visa versa. We need boots on the ground people on our side to keep us flying off only the universe knows where.
As well, for those who are interested I will be sharing recipes I have come up with that are gluten and wheat, rye or barley and their bi-products free. I am an undiagnosed celiac. (See the previous post for an explanation.) I eat whole food as much as possible and have generally a paleo/keto/whole30 type diet. I am currently trying to do whole30 but meh ...seemingly arbitrary rules. I hates them. I am only human and as most of us are, doing the best I can in an overwhelming world.
Fuck sakes... I digress.
The entire point of my post was to share my intention to downsize my material possessions, including my books (....ouch!!), to only those items that give me a 'fuck yes' feeling. Simple. If I have to think about it, why do I have it? I am also determined to live smaller and larger at the same time. Smaller footprint, more life. So I actually sold my Walking Dead Vol.1-3, my entire Dark Tower series and am weeding out the rest of my extensive Stephen King collection. Stephen King got me through some of the most difficult years of my life and even considering getting rid of them is a bit of a shock to my system. I know there are few I would read again, and I have read them all, some of them many times. The Stand stays. Along with the collection that includes The Long Walk, those are hands down my favorite and I have read them many times. And I will read them again. Stephen King got me through so much I can't even ...but perhaps it is time to leave some dark things behind.
I am, henceforth, manifesting our future vision. One day I may share what it is. What I will do is share some of my journey with you lovely readers. I have a need to journal and have long been encouraged to share my story ... boom. Journal blog. Daily entries unlikely but we shall see where this ride takes us. Stick with me if you can, it may get interesting. Beware, allegories and metaphors ahead.
(Disclaimer: much of this post was written in February 2021. Procrastination is a symptom of ADHD. Just saying.)
Rock on, peace, love, rainbows and unicorns.(Imagine emoticons.)
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