Tuesday 20 July 2021

Pan Braised Tuna Steaks ...Dinner with a Friend

First the recipe: 

Pan Braised Tuna Steaks 

 

P.S. I use a gas stove. I am not sure I could achieve the same success otherwise. But I know cooks who can...so it's doable on an electric stove, apparently.

On the day I made this meal my bestie and I spent the hot, sunny afternoon on my deck. A cool mist spraying from the hose occasionally yet pleasantly interrupted our animated conversation. The thing I love about my beautiful friend is their calm and peaceful manner underneath of which simmers a fierce intolerance for any potentially harmful actions that may be perpetrated in their or their loved ones direction. Our conversations run the gamut from the current geopolitical situation to alien life and how totally strange human beings are. Always our own constant internal struggles and personal growth are topics for discussion. This human has helped me grow in so many ways. Fed me encouragement, love, acceptance and especially tolerance for all of my idiosyncrasies. The least I can do is cook a good meal and bask in the glory of their company. 

Rock on, peace, love, rainbows and unicorns. (Imagine emoticons.)

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Tuesday 13 July 2021

So it's 2021 ... Time to Re-new My Blog

Good gawd where has the time gone?? So much has happened since I last published. I have numerous unfinished drafts from 2019...thank you ADHD. I may post them later with updates on the subject matter... that might actually be interesting, to me at least. I have been aching to write but have had some trouble determining which medium gives me the most bang for my time and it is my blog where I am most inspired to share. Not that book plans are out the window, but do I really want to write it with a 1945 Underwood? If I do my book is going to look more like a collage. Which I can actually envision in not an entirely displeasing way. And the pen doesn't seem fast enough for my flow of thought, especially with my penchant for neatness and insistence upon writing in cursive. So new keyboard with retro typewriter keys and a slot for my Surface Pro and my phone when I am working. I like it. A combination of old and new. 

Anyway... here we are smack dab in the middle of a global pandemic. Enough about that. It is what it is and it will be until humanity learns. That over which I have no control I endeavor not to worry about. Other than the events in East Ukraine that is. But that is another subject into which I would rather not delve. I started this blog again to share my goal of increasing the zen in my life and to address those pesky residues of Complex PTSD. My intention is to be open about experiences in my life in an effort to help others who may relate. Share tidbits of my internal struggles. Possibly illicit thought provoking emotional reactions. Whichever suits.

Although I normally despise labels, I will use 'ADHD' and 'Complex PTSD' as I have struggled with all of the classic symptoms at different times for good reason and both types of mental health issues are well defined and familiar. I had a diagnosis for PTSD years ago but have never been on prescribed medication for it. That and unless I need emergency surgery I typically avoid doctors. As for the ADHD I in no way consider it a hindrance and am amazed not everyone works the way I do. But it's a handy excuse sometimes, am I right? In my view, it is merely a different way of looking at the world and those who can't see what we see need us for perspective. And visa versa. We need boots on the ground people on our side to keep us flying off only the universe knows where. 

As well, for those who are interested I will be sharing recipes I have come up with that are gluten and wheat, rye or barley and their bi-products free. I am an undiagnosed celiac. (See the previous post for an explanation.) I eat whole food as much as possible and have generally a paleo/keto/whole30 type diet. I am currently trying to do whole30 but meh ...seemingly arbitrary rules. I hates them. I am only human and as most of us are, doing the best I can in an overwhelming world.

 Fuck sakes... I digress. 

The entire point of my post was to share my intention to downsize my material possessions, including my books (....ouch!!), to only those items that give me a 'fuck yes' feeling. Simple. If I have to think about it, why do I have it? I am also determined to live smaller and larger at the same time. Smaller footprint, more life. So I actually sold my Walking Dead Vol.1-3, my entire Dark Tower series and am weeding out the rest of my extensive Stephen King collection. Stephen King got me through some of the most difficult years of my life and even considering getting rid of them is a bit of a shock to my system. I know there are few I would read again, and I have read them all, some of them many times. The Stand stays. Along with the collection that includes The Long Walk, those are hands down my favorite and I have read them many times. And I will read them again. Stephen King got me through so much I can't even ...but perhaps it is time to leave some dark things behind. 

I am, henceforth, manifesting our future vision. One day I may share what it is. What I will do is share some of my journey with you lovely readers. I have a need to journal and have long been encouraged to share my story ... boom. Journal blog. Daily entries unlikely but we shall see where this ride takes us. Stick with me if you can, it may get interesting. Beware, allegories and metaphors ahead.

(Disclaimer: much of this post was written in February 2021. Procrastination is a symptom of ADHD. Just saying.)

Rock on, peace, love, rainbows and unicorns.(Imagine emoticons.)

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Sunday 11 July 2021

Starting fresh for the bazillionth time...

 If there is one thing I should be used to by now it is change. Especially my own self-directed change, not so randomly burning bridges while in survival mode. Now as things change, it is coming from a deeper desire to be a better, healthier human so I can live to be 100 years old. My PIC and I have future goals and plans. Our home life has now calmed down to a harmonious and healthy peace from which we can better move forward. 

For the past decade or so I have endeavored to eat healthy and maintain a primarily gluten-free diet. I am an undiagnosed celiac who suffers from dermatitis herpetiformis. Before taking issue with the 'undiagnosed' part, research first.

I will say this though; at the beginning of the Covid 19 pandemic I had the absolute worst breakout of the celiac rash I have ever had. It was 3 months of absolute torment to get it under some form of management. I could have had it diagnosed at that time, however it would not be considered urgent enough as the health system was dealing with the pandemic. Fortunately, I was primarily working from home and could manage the extreme discomfort. It took 6 months of absolute wheat, rye and barley free and clean eating, including the complete absence of grain alcohol before my skin quit blistering, itching and peeling. Minor contaminations became a week long ordeal of new blisters. My entire body other than the soles of my feet, my face and the palms of my hands have had blisters. At one point, for about the longest 3 weeks of my life, I had tiny erupting and insanely itchy blisters all over my body neck to ankles. 18 months of totally clean eating and I am rash free without a breakout for about 2 months now. I will never intentionally consume wheat, rye or barley and their many derivatives again. Which, by the way,  now makes a diagnosis impossible. One must have an active rash and/or have an intestinal biopsy after 6 weeks of eating wheat and gluten. NOT. FUCKING. HAPPENING. Besides, my lower intestine has surely begun healing along with my skin. 

So I have to be that person at the restaurant who makes sure that what I am ordering is totally gluten-free, wheat-free and free of any other possible exacerbating ingredients. For the most part my PIC actually harasses restaurant staff to ensure I don't get contaminated. He is well aware of the consequences of my eating even minute amounts of any wheat or gluten and all derivatives thereof. Mostly I don't do take out or restaurants and have to get creative in my own kitchen. For my own wellbeing and survival. Blah, blah, blah. Anyway...

I am now endeavoring to complete the wholefood 30 process again and it is a bit tough going. I do enjoy my after work ritual cigarillo and cocktail after all. The food isn't a problem, my nicotine addiction is, but only moderately. You know, 'all things in moderation, even moderation'. Life is too short to completely drop all the so called 'bad' stuff but self-control is necessary. So I am working on it. Thank the universe for nicotine inhalers.

To be frank, the psychological rules on the whole30 program are the most difficult for me to abide by. I despise them and thus rebel. If I want something 'breaded' and all ingredients are whole30 compliant, I will make it 'breaded' dammit! - such as in the recipe below, 'breaded' with ground almonds. Same with the banana & egg pancakes with fresh berries and coconut milk. (Recipe: 1 banana- mashed and blended with 1 or 2 eggs... that's it. Fry in a cast iron pan like pancakes, top with berries and canned coconut milk. Yummy sweetish treat and healthy breakfast.)

As part of working on it I made the absolute yummiest chicken strips! Because I have been cooking all of my life and like the old-fashioned methods of few ingredients and simple instructions, and rarely follow a recipe anyway, my recipes will be tailored for the seasoned cook, (who else despises recipe blog preambles?). Feast your eyes upon the following example: 


Almond Crusted Chicken Strips

dried rosemary, sage, marjoram, thyme, basil, ground hot chili pepper, pink Himalayan salt. ground pepper

        *grind together to taste (see photo)

finely chopped garlic and shallots, 2 eggs well-beaten

- add - raw chicken strips, and ground almonds - stir until well-coated

Fry in cast iron skillet at medium heat in ghee. 

I do realize that most folks do not work the way I do. So here is a picture of my ground spices:


Please note: as much as possible I use my own dried herbs.

In my view, the rest should be self-explanatory. Should it not be please comment with any questions  and I will answer them. 

This weekend I have worked on a number of food items to help transition to this new way of eating. Backyard berry picking, dried rosemary storing, mixed nuts and dried fruits preparing (see photo), and mentally preparing for the fruit crops soon to be ready and needing to be prepared for storage and eventual consumption, to name a few. My to-do list is long but full of small projects that my ADHD/PTSD addled mind can complete. (Fucking labels...more on that at a later time...maybe.) Cheers to actually being able to checkmark things as done on my to-do list. Baby steps...

Mixed fruit and nuts: 

walnuts, cashews, almonds - 1/2 pan roasted with ghee and pink Himalayan salt. Half not. 

chopped pitted dates, dried cranberries and chopped dried apricot. Shake in jar to mix.



Voila!! Whole30 approved snack!

I usually complete a post with an intention to write more and maintain a consistent ritual of blog posting to get me motivated to put together my book. It is one of my goals. However as part of my healthy transition I am determined that my extra-curricular activities be primarily those I wish to do, so no promises ...and the road to hell is paved with good intentions, as it is said. 

Rock on, peace, love, rainbows and unicorns (imagine emoticons). And as my PIC would say "Good health to you!" 

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